Life As An Introvert

Good Morning, how are you today? I woke up in the mood to write and sometimes the best thing for me is to surround myself with ‘noise.’ That being said I am reporting from a busy coffee shop in my local town, a small attempt at minimising cabin fever and ‘socialising’ -  though be it with mums, babies and the retired, but then there’s the argument that I can’t really call sipping scolding peppermint tea with headphones in socialising? Which brings me nicely on to the topic of these weeks post, the battle between the introvert and the extrovert. Have you heard these terms before? I am positive the voice inside your head is saying yes and you are currently deciphering which bracket you fall within, if you do at all. I constantly feel I need to put a label on my actions and feelings, a habit I am trying to break, I mean I can just want to go home early because I want to, why do I have to have a reason behind it?

The word introvert came into my life when listening to a podcast one morning on my train journey into London, I remember feeling so intrigued by the concept and subconsciously placing myself within a bracket of introvert / extrovert. After an entire train journey going back and forth in my mind I concluded that I am an introverted extrovert, or otherwise known as an ambivert, meaning I enjoy both spending time alone and with others depending on the situation and my needs at that moment.

The life of an ambivert is a funny one and even harder to explain to others, I find myself wanting to be busy and do things with friends or colleagues but also needing time alone. Often for an introvert too much social interaction can be draining, I often find myself that if I have say three really intense days of events, shoots and meetings I need to schedule a day at home to do admin / errands and just be alone to almost recharge my batteries ready for the next event. I have noticed recently that after a solid block of social activities I feel a heaving low feeling weighing me down, it’s almost like ‘holiday blues’ and it really stumps my motivation and activity levels. Something that has been working for me is making sure I spread social situations out across the week and give myself time in between to re-gather my thoughts and spend sometime in a quite minimalist situation. Often being too stimulated via a social activity can leave me feeling disconnected and unfocused a sense of feeling ‘off track’ when I am not physically online is a distraction to me.

I very much love attending events and going for drinks with friends, going on shoots with many people but after such extreme socialising I always need to give myself down time. When your job is 24/7 in the digital world it can become extremely draining and you feel like you can never switch off, which is why I know I need to create a schedule that isn’t necessarily conforming with the norm, it just suits me and my work style.

Just to clarify this post is in no way me explaining why I am like this, its is purely bringing thought to a subject that I find so fascinating. To me it is so interesting how different each brain is and how we as humans react to certain situations so differently, you may be reading this thinking what? I thrive off of social situations and you work in a busy office everyday live with four friends and go out every night, there is nothing wrong with that at all! But where do you think you fall? When you think about your lifestyle what works best for you? I hope you enjoyed this informative, discussion-esque post and I will see you in the next one.

Images - Joanna Brooks

Creative Update.

Good Morning! I hope your morning is bright and sunny and the birds are singing... even though its probably a typical English day,  a bit crap. I wanted to just come on this morning and give you all a little update because last night I finally pulled myself out of a two day slump and felt so inspired and creativity was buzzing at my finger tips.

The Slump.

I'm not really entirely sure why I felt in such a slump, perhaps the weather, extreme low feeling after getting back from Paris maybe just hormones I don't really know but I felt like I was questioning myself, my capabilities, my career choice and absolutely everything in between. On Sunday night I had great intentions writing a big to-do list and a time plan for Monday, but when Monday came I just could not be bothered to do anything, I ticked a few things off but still felt exhausted. But after having a little chat with my Mum (the absolute rock of my life) I came up with a new concept and suddenly felt so much better.

The New.

As I mentioned recently on my Instagram I have a new idea going in the style direction that I want to casually put in place to see how it goes. It may be a total flop but you may absolutely love it! Lauren Grace Style will be a separate Instagram account to my daily Lauren Grace Lifestyle, where I will post just mirror selfies of my outfits each day. This will be a direct source for outfit inspiration and allow me to feel like I am really getting my style and ideas out there without having to book a huge shoot or haul a suitcase to London and will totally eradicate all the stress of needing someone to take my photos, which when working alone proves very difficult. I am going to test run this idea, starting from scratch and just see how many of you warm to it.

The Old, But Updated.

So of course Lauren Grace Lifestyle has been my platform for so many years and it allows me to have an outlet for my creativity and my love of pure creation. I decided to re launch my blog a few months ago, which again allows me to pursue my love of writing and get a little bit more out than just an IG post. But the Youtube channel is the newest venture,I had wanted to start one for ages after watching videos all through my teens and finally I took the plunge. Although even in the past few months I feel like my aesthetics have really progressed so you can expect a few visual changes over there too. I feel like Lauren Grace is now across all platforms and I feel so great for it!

And thats that. Just a little update for you and a reveal of my exciting new platform Lauren Grace Style, which will be coming very soon!

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I’m In A Magazine!

I literally cannot even believe I am saying these words but, I am in a magazine. When Taylor (editor of Rox Jewellery magazine) emailed me with the offer I was so shocked / excited. I booked a job to actually model in a publication, the fact that I have worked with Rox Jewellery a lot previously and it’s a brand that I love and wear pieces from the collection everyday was just even better! I thought I would share a little series of my favourite images from the shoot and the feature itself. A huge thank you to Rox Jewellery and my angel Taylor for choosing me to be in the AW19 issue.

 

 

How Do I Edit?

My most asked question the past few days, it seems to be after my Ibiza trip, is how do I edit my photos. It is actually so simple but I thought I would dedicate an entire post to how I do this so you can always refer back.

I just use one app to edit which is VSCO Cam. However I  did upgrade my app paying £18 a year for VSCO X which gives me unlimited access to all of the filters on offer.

The Editing Process:

  1. Load an image into VSCO
  2. First I will add the filter DOG1 as a basis of the edit. I will then bring this down to suit the image (if the image has a lot of green it will be higher)
  3. Then I adjust the exposure, contrast, shadows and the white balance.

My edits are always different depending on each photo, sometimes I will add grain to give a bit of texture, but that is the basics.

 

Friendships; Making, Loosing and Finding Your Perfect Fit.

Friendships: The emotions or conduct of friends; the state of being friends.

The Beginning.

Making friends is a funny thing, I remember when I was about eleven years old, I was just starting secondary school, and I felt so nervous about meeting new people, sadly this is when my anxiety started. It wasn't until on reflection in a conversation with my mum that I realised anxiety is what I had. I went home early most days within my first few weeks of starting in my first year, because I couldn't breathe and felt sick, I was terrified and embarrassed. Making friends with new people and constantly feeling left out was crippling to me. Of course within a few more weeks I formed lovely friendships, which blossomed and took me on a journey through my school years. Whether it was lunch times crying with laughter sitting on the field eating the best paninis I've ever eaten or planning the weekend parties and gatherings, even crying in the toilets with friends because someone said something about someone, it was an all girls school I think you get the gist. I had some great memories with those friends, but things run their course, people change and go in different directions and there is nothing wrong with that, that is just life.

Secondary school was my first and last experience of a friendship group, I know that for sure.

The Realisation.

I went to college for my two years of sixth form and made some amazing friends that carried me through my lessons and a few nights out, but I had my sights set on University and treated those two years as a period of time to work hard and get sh*t done. It was through this time that I realised a large friendship group isn't well suited to me. On my own I feel confident, have faith and belief in who I am and my own ability, I love myself and I feel proud of who I am as a person and what I create. But in a large group I tend to shrivel and feel intimidated and shy, scared to say anything out of fear of judgment. I notice this coming through often at events I attend now with my job, when there is a large group of people standing around listening to each other chat I tend to just stay quiet and I just keep thinking about when I am going home.

When I went to University I had the same mentality in terms of being there to get my degree and get my head down to achieve a result, which I can safely say I smashed. Going to uni for a stereotypical uni life wasn't really in my interest.

The Boy-friend

While I was at college I met my boyfriend who I have been with for 4 years this November... crazy! He became my best friend and I filled a void of friendships with him, which I wouldn't recommend. It didn't have any effects to us as a relationship because we are so close and we are friends first off. But it is so important to have additional friendships to your partner, you need girl time. I realised that this year and now I have that our relationship is even better than ever.

The Destination

My final journey of friendship so far in my life has been through my job. Being based on social media means I have instant connections with so many amazing and incredible girls. Some of whom I have met through shoots or met up with after speaking for ages on Instagram DM's and I can proudly say I have made some friends for life through this platform. Friends that I can sit and have six hour conversations with deep from the heart, I can laugh, cry, go on trips, and just simply sit in silence, but more importantly the friendships I have now are mature, I can have disagreements and different opinions and thats okay! It's okay not to meet up everyday or text each other every night.

It feels amazing to know that I have figured out what works for me in terms of my friendships. I know that being in a large group just doesn't work for me, having a small group is amazing and one on one friendships are even more meaningful, but for me large friendship groups just aren't right and that is okay! I think what I would like you to take away from this post is that no matter what your situation and your 'relationship' with friendships you always need time to grow and be yourself. I love the quote "How do you expect anyone else to love you when you can't love yourself" I think that is so true positivity radiates and you will attract the right people when you feel amazing! Not everything lasts forever but if it works and brings you happiness it will always be worth the effort.

L x

Lets Catch Up; Instagram Engagement, Self Employed Life & Autumnal Mood.

Hi angel how are you? I hope you are feeling good today wherever you are and whatever you are doing. I realise that I haven’t sat down to write for such a long time, over a month to be more precise. Imposter Syndrome became a thing and I didn’t think I had anything important to write or post about! Silly me. But I am back with a little chatty post to start off the Autumn months.

Firstly, it’s Autumn! I feel like I have been waiting for the brown leaves on the floor and the fresh morning air for weeks now. The feeling of new coats and knitwear filling up my wardrobe is something I will always cherish. Ahh I just love Autumn, some of my favourite things are

  • Autumnal scents and candles
  • Getting in bed early because it’s so dark
  • Soup for lunch everyday
  • Coats and jackets!!
  • Roast dinners every week when it’s raining outside
  • Movie nights
  • Apple crumble
  • Layering outfits
  • My Acne Studios beanie hat
  • Chunky biker boots
  • Did I mention coats?

I have got lots of ideas for content surrounding Autumn I really want to kick start the new season with an abundance of blog posts and Youtube videos so please let me know if there is anything in particular that you want to read / watch just drop me a DM

I think in terms of content I have just been feeling a little up in the air at the moment with what to post and when. I spoke about this briefly on my Instagram stories the other day, but I just wanted to start a more in depth conversation. The problem I am facing is that my followers are constantly going up and the last few weeks I have seen a significant rise after a stagnant period from reposts and my use of hashtags exposing my images to the explore page, which is great… But my own followers aren’t seeing my images. You might be wondering how do I know this? Well as a creator account on Instagram I have access to a variety of statistics in the ‘insight’ area. I can see the exact reach from each post and where that reach is coming from, sometimes more people are viewing my images from hashtags than they are from their home page! How is this possible! If you are someone that already follows me and have done for a while, Instagram may think you don’t want to see my posts anymore so they hide them from your feed. To remove this block you can unfollow and re follow me and like a few images to re boot Instagrams thought process.

But enough of that, as long as I am posting the images that I love and stay true to myself and my own beliefs I am all good.

You start to put a lot of pressure on yourself with these things when you work for yourself and that is something I have really noticed! I am working late in to the night and feeling unsatisfied unless my entire to do list is ticked off.. something that I definitely could never achieve, unless I was an octopus with 8 arms! Being self employed is just a learning curve, I am teaching myself new things everyday and I am always absorbing tips, information and advice from anywhere I can.

I hope this little rambly-update-chat was interesting… some what. I promise I will be back with some good style and interior content ASAP!